Bittersweet Dream Tea

I am not a morning person.

Anyone who knows me will tell you my entire life I’ve had my days and night mixed up. I feel sorry for my mother having to deal with me during school years. Mornings don’t happen willingly, I don’t function well (any) before noon. But my husband and son are just fine with them and I’m doing my best to keep up. My best just sucks.

So, almost three hours of kicking and throwing the pillow around with miserable insomnia would guarantee I’d be in the cupboards searching for relief. One can only hoard pins and plan on Pinterest for so long. Eventually I had to do something productive or I was going to wake my sleepy husband.

I raided the kitchen and pulled out some goodies-wormwood, mugwort, valerian root, and yarrow….oh this was going to taste horrible. So I added some chamomile flowers to keep from gagging. I’m not too creative when I’m irritated and under pressure to sleep. Pulsed them all in a coffee grinder, filled a small mesh tea ball and steeped my herbs for 8 minutes.

The taste was extremely bitter. B.I.T.T.E.R. ohhh lawwwwddd. Wormwood is the absolute worst tasting thing. I doused the teacup in honey and made it a bit more palatable. (I should’ve just threw in a bag of sugar.)

After a half cup of tea I began feeling a little tingle in my face. This stuff works fast.

But beware, don’t go overboard, or you’ll get sick and have plenty of crazy hallucinations.  Even without drinking too much you are going to have visions. And that’s just fine with me, and sometimes that’s the reason to drink it.

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Demonic Enns

The demonic enns are not translated form Latin. Some say there is no specific way to pronounce them and to just go with your gut, and since I cannot find any proof otherwise I’ll somewhat agree. But I do think your tone is important. Try a humming type vibration in your tone. Chanting in repetition will raise your vibration and bring you in closer connection with the one you seek out. Below the list of enns I have embedded a video by the amazing Stephanie Connoly, author of The Complete Book of Demonolatry. Soon I will add links to each name with more information about each one. For now here is an alphabetical list of the demonic enns. Enjoy.

A

Abbadon – Es na ayer Abbadon avage
Abigor – Aylan Abigor tasa uan on ca
Agaliarept – On ca Agaliarept agna
Agares – Rean ganen ayar da Agares
Aim – Ayer avage secore Aim
Alloces – Typan efna Alloces met tasa
Amducious – Denyen valocur avage secore Amducious
Amdusias (also Amdukias) – Denyen valocur avage secore Amdusias
Ammon – Avage Secore Ammon ninan
Amon – Avage Secore Amon ninan
Amy (also Avnas) – Tu Fubin Amy secore
Andras – Entey ama Andras anay
Andrealphus – Mena Andrealphus tasa ramec ayer
Andromalius – Tasa fubin Andromalius on ca
Asafoetida – Asana nanay on ca Asafoetida
Ashtaroth – Tasa Alora foren Ashtaroth
Asmoday – Ayer avage Aloren Asmoday aken
Asmodeus – Ayer avage Aloren Asmodeus aken
Astarot – Serena Alora Astartot Aken
Astaroth – Tasa Alora Foren Astaroth
Astarte – Serena Alora Astarte Aken
Azazel – Eya on ca Azazel aken

B

Babeal – Alan Secore on ca Babeal
Bael – Ayer Secore On Ca Ba’al
Balam – Lirach tasa vefa wehl Balam
Balberith – Avage Secoré on ca Baalberith
Barbatos – Eveta fubin Barbatos
Bathin – Dyen Pretore on ca Bathin
Beelzebuth (also Beelzebub) – Adey vocar avage Beelzebuth
Beleth – Lirach tasa vefa wehl Beleth
Belial – Lirach Tasa Vefa Wehl Belial
Belphegore – Lyan Ramec Catya Ganen Belphegore
Berith – Hoath redar ganabal Berith
Bifrons – Avage secore Bifrons remie tasa
Botis – Jedan hoesta noc ra Botis
Buer – Erato on ca Buer anon
Bune (also Bime) – Wehl melan avage Bune Tasa

C

Camio (also Caim) – Tasa on ca Caim renich
Cimejes (also Cimeies or Kimaris) – Ayer avage secore Cimejes
Crocell – Jedan tasa Crocell on ca

D

Dantalion – Avage ayer Dantalion on ca
Decarabia – Hoesta noc ra Decarabia secore
Delepitoré – Deyen pretore ramec Delepitore on ca

E

Eligos – Jedan on ca Eligos inan
Eurynomous – Ayar Secore on ca Eurynomous

F

Flereous (also Haures – see below) – Ganic Tasa Fubin Flereous
Focalor – En Jedan on ca Focalor
Foras – Kaymen vefa Foras
Forneus – Senan okat ena Forneus ayer
Furcas – Secore on ca Furcas remie
Furfur – Ganen menach tasa Furfur

G

Gaap – Deyan Anay Tasa Gaap
Glasya-Labolas – Elan tepar secore on ca Glasya-Lobolas
Gremory (also Gemory or Gamori) – An tasa shi Gremory on ca
Gusion – Secore vesa anet Gusion

H

Haagenti – Haaventi on ca Lirach
Halphas – Erato Halphas on ca secore
Haures (also Flauros, Flereous, Haurus, or Havres) – Ganic tasa fubin Flauros

I

Ipos – Desa an Ipos Ayer

L

Leraje (also Leraikha) – Caymen vefa Leraje
Leviathan – Jaden Tasa Hoet Naca Leviathan
Lillith – Renich viasa avage lillith lirach
Lucifage – Eyen tasa valocur Lucifuge Rofocale
Lucifer – Renich Tasa Uberaca Biasa Icar Lucifer
Luithian – Advisor : Deyan anay tasa Luithian

M

Malphas – Lirach tasa Malphas ayer
Mammon – Tasa Mammon on ca lirach
Marax (also Narax) – Kaymen Vefa Marax
Marbas – Renach tasa uberace biasa icar Marbas
Marchosias – Es na ayer Marchosias Secore
Mesphito – Mesphito ramec viasa on ca
Murmur (also Murmus) – Vefa mena Murmur ayer

N

Naberius – Eyan tasa volocur Naberius

O

Oriax (also Orias) – Lirach mena Orias Anay na
Orobas – Jedan tasa hoet naca Orobas
Ose (also Voso or Oso) – Ayer serpente Ose

P

Paimon – Linan tasa jedan Paimon
Phenex (also Pheynix) – Ef enay Phenex ayer
Purson – Ana jecore on ca Purson

R

Rashoon – Taran Rashoon nanay
Raum – Furca na alle laris Raum
Ronove – Kaymen vefa ronove
Ronwe – Kaymen Vefa Ronwe
Rosier – Serena Alora Rosier Aken

S

Sabnock – Tasa Sabnock on ca Lirach
Sallos (also Saleos) – Serena Alora Sallos Aken
Samigina (also Gamigin) – Esta ta et tasa Gamigin
Satan – Tasa reme laris Satan – Ave Satanis
Satanchia – Furca na alle laris Satanchia
Seere (also Sear or Seir) – Jeden et Renich Seere tu tasa
Shax – Ayer Avage Shax aken
Sitri – Lirach Alora vefa Sitri
Sonnelion – Ayer Serpente Sonnillion
Stolas (also Stolos) – Stolos Ramec viasa on ca
Svengali – Desa on Svengali ayer

T

Taroon – Taroon an ca nanay
Tezrian – Ezyr ramec ganen Tezrian

U

Unsere – Unsere tasa lirach on ca ayar
Uvall (also Vual or Voval) – As ana nany on ca Uvall

V

Valefor – Keyman vefa tasa Valefor
Vapula (also Naphula) – Renich secore Vapula typan
Vassago – Keyan vefa jedan tasa Vassago
Vepar – On ca Vepar Ag Na
Verrier – Elit Rayesta Verrier
Verrine – Elan Typan Verrine
Vine – Eyesta nas Vine ca laris
Volac (also Valak, Valac, or Valu) – Avage Secore on ca Volac

Z

Zagan – Anay on ca secore Zagan tasa
Zepar – Lyan Ramec catya Zepar

 

The Nine Satanic Statements

 

Written by Anton Szandor LaVey, and published in The Satanic Bible in 1969, The Nine Satanic Statements really has much to say. I am not a member of The Church of Satan. I cannot claim to be an atheist but I do agree with most of this. For visual effect I have added The Leviathan Cross above the statements as it is in The Satanic Bible. This is for informational purposes, just in case one might be inclined to know.

 

1.  Satan represents indulgence instead of abstinence!

2.  Satan represents vital existence instead of spiritual pipe dreams!

3. Satan represents undefiled wisdom instead of hypocritical self-deceit!

4. Satan represents kindness to those who deserve it instead of love wasted on ingrates!

5. Satan represents vengeance instead of turning the other cheek!

6. Satan represents responsibility to the responsible instead of concern for psychic vampires!

7. Satan represents man as just another animal, sometimes better, more often worse than those that walk on all-fours, who, because of his “divine spiritual and intellectual development,” has become the most vicious animal of all!

8.  Satan represents all of the so-called sins, as they all lead to physical, mental, or emotional gratification!

9.  Satan has been the best friend the Church has ever had, as He has kept it in business all these years!

The Leviathan Cross

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The Leviathan Cross

The Leviathan Cross is one of several symbols used for the element Sulfur, and has multiple meanings. The symbol has varied in appearance, name, and meaning over the course of history. Theory suggests it to be a combination of the Cross of Lorraine (‡) and the Infinity Symbol (∞). The Cross of Lorraine was one of the symbols used by the Knights Templar on their banners as they rode into battle, and associated with Joan of Arc and France. This double cross can symbolize protection and balance between male and female, a symbol of duality, and it can also be an “equal-to” (=) to show that every person has their own freedom of choice. The Infinity symbol originates from the Latin word Infinitas, and means “unboundedness”. It stands for endlessness and limitlessness, the infinite universe, infinite power, or eternal rest and happiness. Sulfur is one the three essential elements of nature (Sulfur- soul, mercury-spirit, and salt- base matter or body), and was called brimstone in antiquity.

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“A Table of Mediaeval Alchemical Symbols” from Basil Valentine’s The Last Will and Testament, 1670 ce.

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Sulfur in nature

Brimstone is the brilliant yellow substance found near volcanoes (on the “brim” ), and down into the earth. It is absolutely beautiful.

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Burning sulfur

When it burns, it produces a clear blue flame and a very strong odor of rotten eggs. Without burning it Sulphur still stinks enough to take your breath. This element is now commonly known by its Latin name sulfur, and the word ‘brimstone’ is used more referring to ancient texts.

In the 1960s, Church of Satan founder Anton LaVey gives the symbol the name The Leviathan Cross  (if I’m not mistaken, email me if I’m wrong). He uses The Leviathan Cross in The Satanic Bible, where the symbol was heading the page of the Nine Satanic Statements. This firmly created its reputation as a satanic symbol. According to a Church of Satan website, LaVey “used it as a spooky decoration and it has no other significance despite some hilarious interpretations by “evangelical Christians.”. I do not believe LaVey put this in his book without it having significance. (I’m not a member of the church, but I’m pretty sure quite a few things have changed since LaVey’s death…) The alchemical symbol was not seen as a negative prior to LaVey’s usage. I’m not 100% positive but I believe the symbol was not used in satanic practice before this.

In the bible, brimstone is connected to guilt and punishment, most famously at Sodom. (I suddenly can hear Marilyn Manson’s Apple of Sodom playing.) It is said that there where large deposits of sulfur where the biblical cities of Sodom and Gomorrah were supposedly located. The bible says that the two cities were destroyed in a hail of ‘fire and brimstone’.

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Sodom and Gomorrah

The Leviathan Cross is sometimes referred to as the cross of Satan. An upside-down crucifix is not a symbol of Satanism, and instead is referred to as “The Cross of St. Peter” since Simon Peter was crucified upside down. The Leviathan Cross is often used as an identifying symbol by Satanists, due to Sulfur’s historical association with the devil, and for many other spiritual purposes I will discuss in later articles.

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Dave Navarro with his Leviathan Cross tattoo

In Hebrew origins, Leviathan is the Grand Admiral of Hell. In the bible, there are numerous references to Her/Him that are seemingly endless in negativity.

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The Destruction of Leviathan

In Demonolatry, He/She is an elemental demon of water and the master of emotion. In Satanism, He/She is the chaotic force of emotion. This just scratches the surface. Leviathan represents so much more and I will probably post more on this in the future.

It should be obvious that I am no fan of Christianity and the bible.

 

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Witchcraft didn’t come from your Grandmother! (Well, most of us anyways)

Can I rant?

This will be short and maybe not so sweet.

I am so sick of the “About” sections of witchcraft blogs where the author tells everyone a load of bull, including my favorite- “My GRANDMOTHER taught me”…..

What-the-fuck-ever. No one believes you. Let’s just get that out in the open.

Why is it always someone’s grandmother? Why not their dad, their cousin, their mom, or their aunt? Why is it that a grandmother only teaches her grandchildren? Because this is bullshit most of the time!

For anyone who honest to goodness was actually taught by their very own grandmother I applaud you and hush my foul mouth. For all you fibbers- take that shit down, it makes you look stupid.

In my own personal situation, my grandmother did not teach me witchcraft. She may have done a few things unknowingly (and not thinking it was witchcraft) in front of me, but she was most definitely not trying to teach witchcraft. I’ve heard a lot from her, while I was eavesdropping and not minding my business, about attempting séances when she was a kid with her sisters, dowsing for water, using a pendulum to determine the sex of a baby, and using herbs to heal.

My mother would’ve grown another head and bit mine off before teaching me witchcraft. She knew about blowing in a baby’s mouth to cure thrush, she knew about smudging, and no one I know could match her power with herbs, but she would’ve never called it witchcraft. I had no family members claiming to know magick, yet I picked up on magick from them.

My biggest spiritual and magickal inspiration growing up has to be from my sister who’s only five years older than me, and with the same amount of experience as me. She was pulled to it, and told me right away, and we just kind of did this together.  It does not make it any less mysterious, special, magickal, or amazing that it did not come from my grandmother.

Admit it, maybe you are one hell of a witch, but you learned it from delving through a bunch of books. Maybe some were corny, some were scary, and some were awe inspiring powerful. Or maybe you learned it from someone unexpected. That is pretty cool.

I can admit where I learned it and be proud. A bit of watching and learning, and a bit of partnering up with my sister to learn something. In my area of Kentucky, what we see as magick growing up came in the form of “old wives tales”, and that shit is strong magick!

 

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On Sages and Smudging

     Dried herbs have been burned for ages to rid people of negative energies, to cleanse the sacred space of our homes, and perfume a divine temple as offering to Gods and nature deities. We burn sage on Samhain as a gift to our beloved ancestors. Our ancestors burned dried sprigs of sage and other herbs in their temples and during rituals. My European ancestors burned many different herbs in their practices, and though I prefer the smell of white sage, I do not think this was on hand in those locations. Those ancestors most likely burned common garden sage and a variety of other herbs. 

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Salvia officinalis

      I prefer to grow everything I use. Would this deter me from smudging? Not at all. Common garden sage grows like wildfire here in Kentucky. There’s no struggle. Salvia officinalis makes itself at home here because it is at home. If you are working with more of a European type of magick then I’d even recommend using common sage. 

     This woody herbaceous plant is a member of the mint family Lamiaceae. It is a perennial salvia with soft, almost fuzzy, grey-green leaves, and an amazing smell soothing to even walk by. I just love eating it. 

Cut sprigs of sage in the garden

     I read somewhere in an article awhile back that smudging with common sage was unsafe. Nowhere in the article did they bother to give any scientific proof of this. I totally disagree. Smudging with any herb can be unsafe if you aren’t taking the proper safety precautions as far as ventilation and fire safety. Common sage isn’t any more harmful that white sage. If you have scientific evidence and results proving otherwise I’d be delighted to read it. 

     In my opinion the smell is quite nice. My sister on the other hand detests it. She prefers white sage. I do agree that white sage smells better, or maybe I’ve grown accustomed to it because I didn’t know I could use common sage, I’m not sure. But in my magick I’m not so much concerned about the smell as I am the power. 

     There are so many ways so use common sage (Salvia officinalis ) in both natural medicine and in witchcraft, but focusing on smudging with it common sage is perfect for clearing negative energy out of your home and ritual space. If you are experiencing overwhelming emotions, perhaps you are dealing with grief or loss, and having difficulty in grounding yourself  then this is the sage to burn. When asking for answers to a specific question or path to take I feel this sage is great to burn during your magick.

 

     In the United States, sage is also the name commonly used for a group of native plants called Sagebrush. It is most often found in the western region of the US.  Sagebrush is in the genus Artemisia, in the daisy family Asteraceae, and it is not a member of the common culinary sage family, and not a salvia. Some of the species included are protective and dreamy mugwort, demon dispelling  and spirit-working wormwood, and cleansing big sagebrush. When burned they smell shockingly similar to marijuana. They are spiritual, powerful, and medicinal. I love all of these. When doing ritual and magick more closely associated with my Native American heritage I gravitate towards these. 

     Desert sage (Artemisia tridentate), is excellent for the purification of spirit entities,  removing negativity, psychic work, and house blessing rituals. I use this sage to purify ritual tools and to clear a space after rituals. You never know what spirits are going to leave behind. It is also very helpful during divination.

     White sage (Salvia apiana) is an evergreen shrub in the Lamiaceae family and another in the genus salvia. The white sage bundles we so often see in occult shops have probably come from California where it comfortably grows. In the area I am located at in Central Kentucky white sage is not going to be growing in the wild (to my knowledge), as it prefers a dry environment and well drained soil more like sand. We experience sub-tropical weather here and it is often humid, and what some would say is a bit on the smothering miserable side of humid in the summer. Generally our soil is rich.

     This is excellent to burn when preparing for any type of ritual. Most people prefer it’s fragrance over all others. I think it leaves a note of eucalyptus and hint of rosemary in the air, but some would disagree. White sage makes a perfect base to built incense upon as so many herbs work well with it. Use sprigs of loose white sage to protect rituals tools wrapped in cloth.

The three sages mentioned here are only a small list of the countless powerful choices. There are numerous plants to choose from when smudging and exciting creative combinations when blending herbs. It’s important to research each one before your ritual and magick. I wouldn’t just grab any smudge bundle and light it. Personally, I feel it’s greatly beneficial to choose the perfect one and properly thank the plant it comes from for the power it will provide you.

Some great combinations are:

  • white sage and sweetgrass
  • white sage and cedar
  • common sage and rosemary
  • common sage, rose, and juniper
  • desert sage and lavender
  • desert sage and mugwort
  • desert sage and white birch

     Don’t be afraid to try something new. Your magick depends on you making the best choices.

©2017 Tabatha Land. All rights reserved.

 

 

 

 

Oh Belladonna…

I can hear Stevie Nicks singing Bella Donna in my head and I catch myself smiling.

I wish Stevie was a witch. Of course, I was disappointed to discover that she wasn’t.  I always had this idealized image of her, like the American Horror Story version of her in Coven, and I was sure the Bella Donna she sang of was the belladonna growing in my garden.

In her words:


Bella Donna’ is a term of endearment I use and the title is about making a lot of decisions in my life, making a change based on the turmoil in my soul. You get to a certain age where you want to slow down, be quieter. The title song was basically a warning to myself and a question to others. I’m thirty-three years old, and my life has been very up and down in the last six years.
~Stevie Nicks, Rolling Stone, 1981

The white outfit I’m wearing is the exact opposite of my black outfit on Rumours. Over that it says, ‘Come in from the darkness…’ [which is] the dark side of anyone, the side that isn’t optimistic, that isn’t strong. I’ve got to become stronger because I am very sensitive, and everything really touches me.
~Stevie Nicks, Rolling Stone, 1981

I need to do this to fulfill myself as a writer. I mean, it says, ‘come in out of the darkness.’ That’s saying, save yourself and come back. And it’s a serious thing. I had to do that to do the LP. I had to stop being crazy, or it wasn’t going to be done. Bella Donna was serious ~ I was not talking about a beautiful woman. I was talking about a beautiful woman becoming old and not beautiful. And skinny and too tired, the woman disappears.
~Stevie Nicks, High Times, 1982

This is sort of…the end of a dream. We practiced for like four years to do that. Thank you girls.
~An emotional Stevie after singing the song Bella Donna in concert, 1981

The song Bella Donna is about getting a little bit of my normal life back.
~Stevie Nicks, Everything You Wanted to Know About Stevie Nicks, 1985

Does finding out Stevie Nicks isn’t a witch singing about belladonna ruin this for me? No way! I’ve loved both her and this song since I was a little girl. Eventually I had to grow some belladonna for myself.  It just seemed to call to me.

Many people cannot get their belladonna seeds to germinate or they only get a small percentage to develop. It’s possible that their patience wears thin. Waiting for them to have their cold time in the fridge, or sowing before winter, is no fun. But, if you can force yourself to wait you can grow magic.

When I grow belladonna nearly every seed germinates and develops into a sturdy seedling. I feel like they want to be with me and that they know just what to do.

It won’t be long now before my poison garden of atropa belladonna,  daturas (innoxia, stramonium, brugmansia), black henbane, mandrake, and hemlock is flourishing and awaiting to do their magic.

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Losing Our Cat

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Dracula, beloved friend and companion who we could never forget.

How very cruel to give us this perfect pet and then take him so suddenly. I am so angry, yet I do not know who to be angry with.

One summer night I had asked for a magickal sign, and the next day in the garden I look down to find this perfect doll looking up at me. I sure didn’t need another cat, I had three, but there was something about him. We knew he was meant to be with us.

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Always so peaceful, so please rest in peace little friend, we love you

He would wake me in the night sucking on my neck, so he became Dracula, our new baby. My husband fell completely in love with him and claimed him, though he was ours, the whole family. No one could resist him.

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I will miss your soft fur, velvety black paws, your soft meow, everything.

And just as swiftly as he came he went. Someone saw fit to poison our baby. How could anyone be so cruel? I couldn’t poison any animal. My poor husband is so heartbroken. He had never loved a pet in this way and it has been especially difficult on him.

I want to think Dracula is with Freyja and all her other cats. Wouldn’t that be wonderful? I need to know he is happy and peaceful.

Egyptians have Bast, but they aren’t the only ones to worship a Cat Goddess. Norse mythology tells of the Goddess Freyja and her love of cats. She is depicted many times with cats around her. Cats are so charming and amazing even the Gods cannot resist them.

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While Freyja’s cats look on, the god Thor is unhappily dressed as Freyja in Ah, what a lovely maid it is! (1902) by Elmer Boyd Smith “Ah, what a ugly maid it is!” by Elmer Boyd Smith. The god Thor is dressed to appear as the goddess Freyja by two maidens, while the god Loki laughs. Two cats watch

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“Freya” (1901) by Johannes Gehrts. The goddess Freya rests her hand upon a shield. Published in 1901

The Rainbow Bridge
‘There is a bridge connecting Heaven and Earth. It is called the Rainbow Bridge because of its many colors. Just this side of the Rainbow Bridge there is a land of meadows, hills and valleys with lush green grass.
When a beloved pet dies, the pet goes to this place. There is always food and water and warm spring weather. All the animals who have been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.
The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind. They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. Her bright eyes are intent; her eager body begins to quiver.
Suddenly she begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, her legs carrying her faster and faster. You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.
Then you cross the Rainbow Bridge together, never again to be separated.’
-Unknown

With all the comforting words I’ve read it’s just too soon for any of it to help. Maybe later. Right now I can’t even write any more.

08/16-02/17 We didn’t have you long enough.

Goodbye sweet kitty Dracula. We love you so much and painfully miss you.

 

And here I am…

I want to  share with others witchcraft as I know it. For so long the only information and books I had that actually used the words “witchcraft” and “witch” were all Wiccan sources. And while I enjoyed much of this reading it left me confused and ultimately disconnected. I didn’t feel anything towards the Wiccan religious aspect and so I assumed I was doing everything wrong. Not once did I see any of these sources explain that Wicca and Witchcraft are not the same exact thing. I won’t say that it wasn’t there, I’ll say I never saw it. You can be a Witch and not be Wiccan, and you can be both, but the two words are not the same thing. I was young and I needed it spelled out for me. I nearly gave up because Wiccan rituals and dedications made me feel nothing that I thought it was supposed to, and it felt more like I was acting and memorizing a play. I felt silly. I’m not saying that Wicca is silly, not at all, I have a lot of respect for Wicca and the authors of those books as well. A couple of my favorite books are written by Wiccan authors. I felt silly because I was going through the motions but feeling nothing and continuing to do it. Eventually I had to stop and step away from it all to gain perspective. Years later on down the road instead of feeling silly and fake I then felt alone and empty. I questioned everything, “Now what?” I thought to myself, “This cannot be all that there is and I have so much left inside me.”. I began studying the history of Wicca, Christianity, Mesopotamian Religions, Thelema, Odinism, European, Asian, and Egyptian religions and then back to Wicca and every section of it. I did this for years questioning everything over and over. Wicca has so many beliefs it left my head spinning, that’s not always a bad thing. There’s Monotheism, Duotheism, Polytheism, Pantheism, Agnosticism, and Atheism. And then Dianic, Gardnerian, Asatru, Odinism……Help is what I cried out inside! I had to just stop it all. I stopped practicing all forms of magick for awhile. I stopped trying to find a name to what religion I was. I just stopped and started focusing on living. I had bad relationships I had to get out of my system. I had a few businesses to start and then end. I became a mother and that was such a gift! I focused all of my attention on him. Through that joy I eventually found strength to begin a wonderful relationship with my soul mate and now husband. I stepped back and let it be for awhile. Then I felt great about it! Do you really need a label to practice Witchcraft? To pray? To cast? To believe in power? To be in tune with something powerful? No. I can sit on the bare Earth and feel the power and it be enough. I don’t need a labeled path to say I am a Witch.

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